Monday, January 26, 2009

Its a bit long...

Wow! Hey y'all long time no see! So life right now is pretty sweet! School is going smoothly, as long as I stay on top of my studies. Randy and I are good right now... he is super sweet! We might be needing some prayer over this year, he is needing to explore and experience new things- NOT Gainesville. So, our future plans are put on hold as of right now! :( It makes me really sad but I don't want him to resent me for anything so I say go. It will be tough but if God has our lives together then it will all work out. I've just gotta keep telling myself that- over and over and OVER! My family is good. My Pawpaw is the one we are all worried about right now. He was in the hospital for almost 2 weeks with pneumonia and congestive heart failure. He is going back tomorrow for more tests and next week to scheldule a day to put in a pace maker. His heart isn't as strong as it should be with an open heart surgery under his belt. God will take care of him I know!

CHURCH
Ok, well church right now is strange...that does'nt sound good but its true. My church is just, well , I'm not feeling it and I know that is very selfish of me and I don't go to church to get something out of it because I know that I should go to glorify God...I do but it's hard when something just is'nt right. I don't know how to say what it is without coming across as something I'm not trying to be... anyways different subject kinda-- Well I was offered a position at my parents' church to be the childrens minister. I have to say that it was the hardest decision to make WITH God. I say that because I prayed for over a month for God to show me the right dicision to make. Here's how I came across that... I was totally on the fence, dead centered on the fence, with what to do. I love Kids and I love to see them grow and learn. I also didn't know if I wanted that much responsibility on my shoulders- not mentioning I'm still in school and I work. So one day I asked Shane ( my wonderful brother) to give me a book of the Bible to read- now I only asked because I really just wanted to read a "good" book- so he told me to read Hebrews! I started reading and SMACK ! it was as if God slapped me right slab in the face with the message! I was in chapter 5- let me back up a tid bit, I had spoken with the pastor at Pinecrest (where my parents go, you know the one that offered me the position) and I let him know that I wasn't sure if I was spiritually ready to do this because I felt like I was at a stand still with the Lord and I wasn't growing like I thought I should be. He said " you know Christ can strengthen your faith and grow you by leading just like, and if not more than, when your being taught." I never thought of it that way and so yea back to my reading... It basically told me the same thing Parrish (the pastor) had told me. I was reading Hebrews 5:11... and it says " ...it is hard to get it across to you since you've picked up this bad habit of not listening. By this time you ought to be teachers yourselves, yet here I find you need someone to sit down with you and go over the basics on God again, starting from square one- baby's milk, when you should have been on solid food long ago! Milk is for beginners, inexperienced in God's ways; solid food is for the mature, who have some practice in telling right from wrong." That is The Message version. CRAZY huh?!So needless to say, I have decided to take the position... I'm waiting on them to contact me now! So we, God and I, will be helping the children of Pinecrest Baptist church to grow in Christ and learn to live more in His way's. Hopefully it will be fun and successful and God will show Himself to the kids, the church, and to me more than I would have ever expected!!!!! So keep me in your prayers and most of the kids- Yay!!!

So yay life is good! I hope you and yours is good as well!!!

Monday, December 8, 2008

My 1st in a while...

Hey Hey!! Ok so I know I haven't written- excuse me I mean BLOG!! I just wanted everyone and I do mean everyone- those that read my blog- I MADE AN A ON MY OB2 FINAL!!! thats all I have to blog today--- oh I am now going to be using blog in place of say or talk... just to let you know!! ok I'm out!

Monday, August 4, 2008

Truely Blessed!

wow! long time no blog! So a lot has been going on here lately in my life and I want to sincerely appologize for not keeping you updated. I am now in abdomine 1 in school and it is tough because there is just way too much to be taught about all your organs and all the pathologies that are involved with each. Im doing ok though! Pray!

My family... well I'm praying and I ask you to do the same for us. God's will, will be done and I will continue to thank God for what I have in my life- I learned this tonight*. Even though we are going through a rough time and wont get much better without the hand of God, I know that what is meant to happen will happen as long as it is put into God's hand. NOONE can make this better...ONLY Him!! I try to stay as positive as I possibly can and continue to be in pray and thank Him daily. I know things can look up, even if there are sacrifices to be made and hearts to be broken. Life goes on and all that matters in the long run is that Christ is glorified in every action, every word, every attitude that we make or have. No need to stress over something that I have no controll over or something that I cannot make the main descion over. All I know is that I am staying focused on Christ, school and my friendships. Even if you have no idea what I am talking about, please say a little prayer for my family! :)

What I meant by " I learned this tonight" * was well ... tonight I was asked to go to an old church in Atlanta that is now a shelter for women and sing. I was so nervous and I had no idea what to expect. I loved it! I have never been so thankful for the things Christ has placed in my life. As hard of a time I know my family is going through, it doesnt compare to what others have gone through, and I saw that tonight. These women were so loving. They would come up and give us hugs and say I love you. When asked " How are you?" their response was "Blessed." They can see that they are blessed, being without a home, a job, a big family, a car, money, descent clothes, or any of the daily things we take for granted every second of our lives - they know they are blessed. Whether it be that they are just blessed to be living, or just to have fellowship with other people I dont know. What I do know is that they know they are blessed! That to me is a true, broken heart for the Lord. I wake up every morning, take a shower in my very own bathroom, I sit and eat my very own breakfast, and I get in my very own car and go where I please. Yet my response when asked "How are you?" isnt "Blessed." How disappointing. How sad. I should be waking up every morning and falling on my face thanking and praising God just for another day.
The children that were there truely touched my heart. It was completely obviouse that the love they desire isnt met. I had a little boy sit in my lap the entire service. There were three little girls sitting next to me and when Ken- Laura's boyfriend- gave the message they all wanted their own Bible. When we were singing a couple of praise songs, the little girls felt so free to dance. Why cant we find the freedom to dance? I think the innocense of a child is what we need, I think that is how Christ sees us and it breaks His heart to see us hide, to see us put ourselves on a pedistal and feel so self-righteous that we cant even find it in our hearts to fall on our knees and be honest with our selves and with Christ- knowing that He fully and completely knows our hearts and if there is anything in our hearts that does not glorify Him we try to hide it... silly huh?! Thats just plum silly- the first thing you learn as a child, in church, is that you cant hide for Him... not even as an adult can we hide behind our family, or work, or our busy scheldules. NOT POSSIBLE YALL!!!! We need to find our inner child, our inner innocense and fall on our faces before Christ. Who cares what someone next to you thinks... they wont be the ones you have to answer to one day. If someone who has nothing but the love of Christ- which I need remind you is ALL we need, can humble themselves before the Lord... so can you, so can I, so can we. So how bout a little dancing on Sunday... I bet Christ dances in heaven watching down on us and listening to our praises be lifted up- that is if our praise are truely praises...

Thursday, June 5, 2008

What's Happenin' ...

OK so guess what... I got an A, I actually got an A on a physics test!! The funny thing is, is we were told that the test would be Monday but was surprised yesterday at the end of class that our test of 7 CHAPTERS would be today! So the whole class started freakin out and getting mad. Sooo I came home and studied from 5 to 11 and then got up and left a little before 7 to get to school a little early and studied for another 2 or so hours. Come to find out, some of the girls in the class had written hate emails and called our teachers boss complaining about the fact that he changed the test date. OHHHHH WELL...

I figured out that if I truely study and do nothing else each day, it will pay off. I got an A and I had never been that nervous before a test yet! When Tom showed me my grade, it was as if I had been carrying around the entire universe on my back and God had taken it off and placed it where it belonged!! What a breath of fresh air!!!

Life here lately has been pretty stressful... with work and school. Work it self doesnt stress me, it is just the fact that I have to work and study and its so hard. People at work think that work is sooo important, but they work there as their career. I will not work at sam's the rest of my life! Dont get me wrong, it is a great job, temporary job- and the people I work with and for are great people, I just have bigger plans for my life! I cannot wait until I have a weekday job and have the weekends off. I do believe this is the most I will be doing at one time for the next year! Say a prayer for me to keep my cool, to get enough sleep, and to remain focused!

Tomorrow- I begin shadowing at TLC OB/GYN!!! I am so excited to learn more about what I want to be doing the rest of my life. School is teaching me, but we arent at OB yet! I hope that when we do get to OB that I will be really good at it since I am shadowing on fridays!! I get to wear scrubs and all!! :) I can't wait! :)

Church- We have a prospective pastor!! We get to meet him and his wife this Saturday and he is preaching on Sunday! I am so excited and I hope he is the one that God has for us, and he will help turn the church around! I hope people in the church do not think that he will be the one that does it...we all have to put in the effort to make a difference! I cant wait :)

I am learning the giutar... it is soooo hard! My super talented friend Joanne is teaching me and she is so awesome and has great patience!! Haha- it is a lot harder than I thought it was going to be, but I have to learn patience with myself and take my time and practice!!! Super exciting :)

Randy and I are doing great! He works and goes to school at GSC and I work and go to school. We dont really see each other that much, and believe me it is really hard cause we are use to being with each other every day and eating dinner and watching movies--- It isnt like that right now. I love him so much and sometimes I think he thinks I dont have time for him, but that is kind of the case but its not that I dont want to be with him I just want to be good at what I do and I will be finished with school in a year and he just has to be patient with me. It will all change soon but until then we will just have to cherrish the moments we have together!! :)

Sunday, May 11, 2008

The Fam

Ok so if you read what was previously here you probably think that my family isnt so great! BUT they are exactly the opposite! I love my family so much and I think we are growing closer and closer together as the weeks go by. I do wish we saw each other more but thats just life and you gotta deal sometimes!

School is going great, we just began physics and so far so good. I got an A in intro and hopefully the A's will continue to follow!!!!

Tuesday, April 29, 2008

so...no...graph...y school

I opened a new book, in my life that is, yesterday. I woke up bright, not so bright, and early, got ready and headed off to my first day of school- Sonography, not STonography (randy), school. And come to find out... I LOVE IT!! My teacher Tom is HILARIOUS! I have even made a few friends... one of which wants to go shopping one day after school with ME! Right now we are in the b..o...r...i...n...g stage of the class. INTRO- "The History of Ultrasonography." It is pretty boring but hey, you never know when one will need the knowledge of German submarines being sunk due to detection from a hydrophone- which is an underwater device, which uses sound... SONOGRAPGHY! Pure Brilliance :)

Anyways... I just wanted to let everyone, like the whole world needs to know or cares to know, or even reads this- that I am thoroughly enjoying! So all you moms or wanna be moms out there... just wait maybe 2 years or so to get pregnant cause until then you will just have an average jane performing your ultrasound- So in 2 years, if you wait, the most passionate ultrasonographer will be in the office and I will show you the little God given miracle in your little belly!

Thursday, April 17, 2008

Sing a song- Sing a song- God of Heven come down- Heaven come down!!!

OK so if you know me at all... you know I have a passion to sing! I love to sing, and for some reason I didnt discover this passion until high school, 10th grade to be exact!! So I have tried out for american idol... didnt make it, and last night and today i called into the Fish and sang, they are having a gosspel/christian singing contest. I dont really think about becoming a "singer" that often and it is mostly because I can not stand to hear myself sing!! HaHa I know that sounds awful but I think I sound awful!! BUT... people tell me how much they like my voice so I keep doing it, not because the people like it but because I know that no matter how awful I may sound to myself or even to others or even if I forget the lyricks, I am still worshipping my savior who deserves everything I have!! I help lead the praise and worship at my church on Sunday mornings ( West Hall Baptist) and I absolutly love it because for me, worship is what gets me. I love to dig deep in the word, dont get me wrong, but for some reason there is so much emotion in worship and I LOVE IT!!!

One of my very best friends,Laura, texted me the other day and told me how much she appreciated my voice and the songs I sing.<> She told me she listens to it all the time and crys!! She told me that it encourages her and help her when she is having a not so good day... that means so much to me. Thats when I wish I could become a singer, so I can help others to know God, or to even make them smile!! I love to make people smile <> Anyways, back to subject. If i never becomea famous singer or what not, I will always continue to sing a new song, and just maybe it will bring someone to know Christ, or just make them smile!!!!